10 days.. 10 days.. 10 days..
It is officially 10 days till I climb onto a very small plane (don't get me started on that) and head to Sydney in preparation for the the big one a day later!
My goodness me, no turning back now, it's really happening! The hard work of 6 ladies with some amazing and generous support from our communities, friends and family far and wide.... physical training aside I am so proud of the amount of energy and effort that has been expended to get us to this point. I am really grateful to be a part of this with some pretty amazing ladies.. they have kept me propped up and peddaling and when my anxiety hits fever pitch I know I can rely on them to talk me out of breaking my arm, "slipping" off the porch or any of the other stupid ideas I have had in the past few weeks. It's amazing what your brain tells you is possible when your in panic mode!
My anxiety is reaching new heights with each day that ticks by, BUT I can feel myself becoming a little harder with each day too. I am not one to give up easily and usually when I am committed to something, that's that... it WILL get done. And this is no different. So as my anxiety rises in a stupid way so too does my stubbornness to get on that plane, ride my butt off and have some fun (YES I SAID FUN) with my lovely friends.
This week I completed just over 187km on the bike, which over 7 days isn't a lot per day, but it is a HUGE jump in the right direction for me. Just getting on the bike EVERY day has been awesome.. I am feeling way more comfortable and I am aiming to keep going every day until we hit the sky!
Oscar keeps telling me how many sleeps are left... he is starting to say he doesn't want me to go :( It's very sad, but he will be more than fine here without me (gasp) and I am already dreaming about coming home and squeezing them all that much tighter.
So my job in the next 10 days is to make sure my anxiety levels are not higher than my determination levels... I am going to try to get it under control, they will be fine, they will be more than fine. I will be fine, I will be more than fine... I am going to take some time out for myself with a couple of my besties and some other lovely friends, eat some amazing food, see some amazing sights and create some amazing memories to share with my family when I get home :)
And it's going to be wonderful xx
