Perspective.... A little something that can be easily lost!
This is what has challenged me of late... perpsective... it is just too easy to forget the who, what, where and most importantly WHY! My journey is more than one dimension... all the parts fit together to make it the special, life changing, monumentous event that it is and will be.
A timely reminder from a very wise man (who may or may not be my husband) came this evening over Thai green curry and a glass of "very good for me" grape juice :) I will never admit this out loud, although now that I am writing it I guess he will inevitably see it and know.... but he has really and truly helped me sort out my thoughts, a HUGE feat let me tell you.
I am clinging this week to why I am doing "this thing"... clinging to the idea of something that is all mine, something (apart from keeping my thoughts clear) my beautiful family just cannot help me with! I need this, I need to step outside my little world and seek to learn more about me.. more about what makes me who I am - good or bad.
In order to clarify the why I am remembering the who - my beautiful friends.. people who mean the world to me, people who would (and DO) reach out to help me through my struggles big or small... being with them adds a dimension to this journey I wouldn't change for all the treasure in Ali Baba's cavern.
In order to clarify the why I am remembering the what - the ride of a lifetime, a HUGE hurdle for me (and if I am being perfectly honest with myself and you too.. I actually don't even really like to ride, I get bored and when I get off my bike I wobble around like a telly tubby... here's hoping that changes with time and practise!) and a massive fundraising venture for Arthritis NSW. I have been a part of so many fundraisers, for so many different things, but not many that have seen me asking for ME.. asking people to support ME on a journey that is bigger than BEN HUR (at least to me anyway). It adds a whole new dimension to the journey and while it often creates a knot in my stomach I know I am supported by alot of awesome people and with their help I can do it.. OR at least the FOUR FIT LADIES can do it, hand in hand as we pedal along our way (obviously not literally, that would be weird watching the four of us coming up the road really holding hands... I mean I can barely stay on the bike with two hands let alone one LOL).
In order to clarify the why I am remembering the where - VIETNAM... oh my goodness what an amazing destination, even if I am going to be super saddle sore and missing my crew like nothing else.
So as I continue to traverse the challenges that face me personally and physically I will remember what MY wise man said tonight... I will remember and I will do my very best to adopt his clarity, remove the fuzz from my brain and move forward stronger and less concerned about the "silly stuff" that has clogged my insecure and flawed head of late.
Insecure and flawed... I am NOT a big fan of those words.. so with some help from this beautiful family of mine I will BANISH them from my head. It's onwards and upwards from here...
And speaking of ONWARDS and UPWARDS we held our first fundraiser in Coonamble last night and raised an ASTOUNDING $1300 towards our journey... I am in complete awe of the community I live in - 90 people attended our trivia night and helped us launch our campaign with a massive BANG! I am so grateful to my team mates for making it happen along with all the helpers we had along the way.. what a TRULY humbling experience! Pinch Pinch Pinch.. yep really happening, 38 weeks to go :) WOO HOO!!!!!!!
(L-R) Marissa, Sal, Jane & ME
